I haven’t written a blog post in what seems like years, so I figured I would change that seeing as how it’s the beginning of a new year! This year means a lot to me because this marks the two year anniversary of my coming out.
Two
years ago I was shaking in the bathroom of my mom’s house, phone in hand,
finally admitting to one of my best friends (shout out to Samantha Halchak!)
that I was, in fact, gay and it was the first time I had ever admitted it to
myself (even if it was just in a text). I was terrified that everyone I knew
would reject me and I would be left alone in this world.
I couldn't have been more incorrect.
My
life is so much better now that it’s unreal. I have found a new confidence and
every day that I live my life I find out a little more about myself. And more
importantly I let myself act and be exactly how I want to be. I try my best to
not let anyone stop me from being who I am although in this society it can be
difficult. Being called a faggot for wearing a pro-gay on a run shirt is hard,
I won’t lie but I just have to remember that ignorance is still alive and well
and I can’t change that. Although at the time I wanted to turn around and sock
them straight in their face.
So
this is just a short, little post but I want to thank everyone in my life for
being there for me whether or not we have had our ups and downs. I love my
family more than anything in this world although we don’t always see eye to eye
on things, but that’s okay! I love my friends who have carried me through the
rough nights in my life and the through the tears that have definitely been
shed during my journey. I’m happier than I have ever been in my entire life and
I owe it all to my friends and family. I feel so, so lucky to be where I am
today. I wouldn't take back any of it for a moment because
I wouldn't be where I am today without the good AND the bad.
I
love you all so much and can’t wait to see what this year has in store for me!
